Check my cousin the man is dope and inspires me to make my writing work not only for myself but for others. Keep doing ya thang man like they said you’re poised to do and be the next big thing!
(Source: chosenlyric)
(via beautiful-lotus)
just remember im human too.
its really my only request at this point of my life.
and its always denied someway or another.
(Source: bad-dominicana, via holdingnothingback)
The fight goes on every single day! Love to my ground soldiers male female whatever you name yourself to be, from every creed of every colour. We have to love and support each other in our fights. Shout out to my NYOTI Family Keish Kim for your bravery passion and commitment I strive to be like you in all I do.
So this girl im in love with says i’ve changed
In the short time we have been together I would say the same
I definitely feel it too and wish I didn’t, but I don’t feel it quite the same way,
Every day since we made it official I been trying to show her how much I care.
How much more I am than the words I set to air, trying to gain her confidence
Which would be an accomplishment if she could give it to me.
There are some things I am starting to see
I have a PSA, you have changed too, not just me.
I’m telling my perspective this way so you’ll see
Change is inevitable and can set you free. When you try and make change for good good is what you eventually see.
You complain I’ve changed, as I wake up late for the day rushing with you the only thing really on my mind.
Though if I had been sleep when I was supposed to my phone wouldnt have died, and I would not have fallen asleep trying to find the charger.
No, Instead I stayed up though quite ready for bed
draining all the power out of my phone, which also serves as my alarm, because I did not want to get off with you feeling alone, upset or cause yourself greater emotional harm.
Trying to be there for you, I missed my alarm but the only harm you see is to yourself, and what you need, and how I could not succeed in providing emotional support
Indeed my usual response has changed, I have taken pain to convert it. I’m trying to turn shyt in my life around, go from being lost to found
for myself.
I’m taking responsibility for my mental, physical and emational health
so that I gain the wealth to provide to and for my progeny.
I’m trying to stop smoking, do well this semester,and start coping in healthier ways,
I have to walk far, experience much, see smell and touch so that I can speak and write the world that I want to see even if I’m not concerned with the world and I work on what is personal to me.
I’ve been making these changes slowly with no support from you because you are to busy making me feel like shyt, tearing our relationship to bits and blaming it all on psychological fits so you do not have to commit to yourself or to anyone else.
So you can say things like, Well I told you in the beginning that I was a lot to handle.
Yes you did.
What you did not tell me is that you would not be able to handle it when I began the real work it will take to make my life better.
Which would in turn make you and I better and more able to weather whatever is thrown at us.
You did not tell me that you would take all the trust I put in you and smash it to pieces or that you do not want to figure yourself out because it hurts too much
That you don’t want to trust me with your heart. You told me that you would do things to sabatoge our relatonship and tear us apart
I’m feeling like I should have listened.
You have changed and become this unmotivated individual that I hardly recognize as the woman who told me we would be together.
I spend so much time and energy trying to make you better, when no matter how much I do it will not be enough
These changes for better or worse come from inside ourselves not from outside of us.
I will not stray from my course for a better life. I am tired of searching externally for what I can make right. I’ve done nothing wrong it is with clear conscience, love, respect and concern that I write.
Just so you know I had horrible dreams not a good night.
Actions speak louder than words, I have tried to make my message of love heard and been returned with actions that do not take me or a future with me into consideration,
You treat me with little to no patience and aggravation for having basic or other needs.
I thought we were going to grow together, learn to support each other and build our love.
Instead you complain everyday about not knowing your way, when really non of us do. But then are unwilling to do what you must do for positive changes of those things to come to you
You have so much to your name that now, no one can take away
I do not see your appreciation for yourself, what you have, or your own accomplishments so how could I really expect you to appreciate me.
You used to, or maybe that was all a front to keep me.
Maybe I should really believe that you are inconsiderate, Your words not mine, and you just can’t handle being alive.
That you do not love you or I enough to work on you, do what you have to do and really start working with me to make us work.
I don’t write this to inflict hurt or be a jerk but everything takes time and work.
If we do that things change but we have some control of the way,
If we don’t and sit back, talk crap and throw up our hand like Steve Urkle, look back and say did I do that? Things will change anyway out of and beyond our control.
Being unable to change takes it’s toll, and i’m sorry but it is not on me to just make my way through the shyt that your spewing.
if you want me with you then It will take action and change, on your part not just mine and it may be early now but we are running out of time for you to embrace me, yourself, and change.
